More than just a friend

The girl I would marry if I was not gay, muhahaha. I know she's going to kill me for putting such a picture here but I'm as ridiculous as she is...at least!Anyway, this girl (I'll keep her name hidden, she's such a star) has been my best friend for two years now. She's in Vancouver and, despite the fact that I've not seen her since last Christmas, I miss her as much as I miss my boyfriend. Because she knows me more than I would like, I just love her. An artist and a pseudo-hip intellectual, she is as tortured as I am when it comes to feelings and love stories. We also get along for this and so many other things.
Some times I just want to kill her because she has such a gift for discovering what you're really thinking ands why you behave in such a way and not another... she could easily get on my nerves for this. Until I realize she's right agaiiiiin.
And despite our separation this year, I think we have some more things in common now. First, we both have became alcoholic (the picture is just a proof), we both do not know what to do with our lives, we both wonder also if we have a life and what we should do about it, we both have complicated families, we both blablaaaa
And while I do not really enjoy what she listens to, when it comes to music she is the best. Wannabe-hip? Yes she is but not in the bitchy way. Wannabe loved? Yes but she is already, even if she tends to forget it sometimes.