Should I stay or should I go?

These days, I've been thinking more and more of stopping to depend financially on my parents. Given the fact that the relations between my parents are getting even more complicated and insane than before (summary: my father is an asshole with my mother) and given the fact that my father does not give a shit about what I'm doing in Canada, saying to him "fuck you, I'm not going to keep on having a relationship with you just for your fucking money".
I know this post could seem like a shitty complaint of a young wannabe-rebel teenager but I just need for my psychological health to get rid of any relation with my father for a certain period of time. Given the fact that I'm a burden for him (as he has made me understand it), it won't be a problem for him.
It'll be hard at the beginning but, as regards the French systems of sholarships, I could be able to survive without his help. A job will be required but that's not a pb. I just have to wait until I'm back in France...

While I was thinking about this, I just realized that Family is a burden that society does not help you to get rid of. As soon as you want to study, you rely on your parents in an important part (if not the entire part): financial help for the State are determined in function of your parent's wealth even if they're not giving you money anymore (!) and it's a fucking long process for being recognized at independent from your Family and then have some financial support from the State. I've always hated family values because they're so conventional and imposed upon oneself since one's childhood that they're nothing but tyranny. The point is maybe that family is the place where each of us could be (except for some) his/herself and it is therefore the place where the lowest human behaviours could be expressed.

Canadian disapointment

These days have been the occasion of a reevaluation of my perception of Canadian culture.
First I have learned that 1 young people upon 3 in Quebec is analphabet or quasi-analphabet. I was just shocked.
Second, I learn today that only 40% of Canadians, according to a study of the Institute of Canadian Studies, are able to say how many people died in the nazi death camps. And only 70% actually know that Jews were the first targets of the Holocaust.
What is wrong with that country? I thought before coming to Canada that it was one of the most important supporting country for education. Seemingly, this is not true. Maybe the problem is eslewhere. As education does not depend on the federal state but on provinces, one could suppose that it is the responsability and the fault of each state if its population does not know enough. But it's Canadian interest to have a properly educated population.
Well, I was just highly disapointed.

Is the United Nations useless?

This is the question I had to ask myself after my course about International Organizations. The teacher is supposed to learn us how these organizations work and what they are actually doing but it turned into a harsh criticism of the United Nations as a useless organization. The teacher pointed out that it has permitted the avoidance of another Global War but he was seemingly convinced that, except for the symbolism of the institution, it was just pointless.
I just had a problem with that. It is true that the United Nations just sucked in a lot of conflicts. The last one was the Iraq War. The USA just refused to let the organization determine what they were supposed to do. It is also true that the UN troops are just sometimes easy targets for terrorists and rebels as they don't have any power.
However, these organizations are only what the States want them to become. It is indeed true that the UN should be reformed from an institutional point of view BUT if it does not work, it is only because countries such as the USA just do no respect the obligations written in the Charter of the UN. When they ratified the Treaty which created the UN, the USA acknowledged that they would respect the written duties of the Charter. Pb: they only respect that text when it advantages them. The problem is also that no country is courageous enough to say fuck to the USA, the only superpower of the world right now. One solution for some people is that we just have to wait for the appearance of other superpowers such as China, India or the European Union. But right now, it's the shit and the image of the UN does not deserve this destiny.
The UN is actually doing a lot through their different agencies such as the World Trade Organization that obliged for example the USA to stop its taxes upon importations of European iron (or coal?). The UNESCO and the UNICEF are other examples of successful organizations of the UN. I do believe that the world is better with the United Nations.

Sooooooo

It's official: the official temperature in Montreal today is -23°C and the real temperature (including the effect of the wind) is -34°C!!!!!!! I'm going to stay home all day long and that's all...

Scissor sisters rule!

The concert was just great! The band is soooo charismatic, especially the female singer and one of the guitarist. Their look was especially original and marvellous. If the 1st part of the show (the Japanese girl called MU) was cancelled, the Scissor Sisters were worth it. I just became fan, there is a whole disco side of the band which is not that obvious when listening to their album: just G-R-E-A-T and trash. I loved it!

Performance on Sunday!

I'm going to see the Scissor Sisters on Sunday in Montreal! I'm so excited about it, I just can't wait. Their album was great and this band is all about performance. The first part of the show will be the work of a Japanese artist called Mu: she's totally fucked up seemingly, in an electro-manga aspect. Well, at least it will be great music, for once!

Surprise...I finally decided to add something else to my pseudo-hype personality. I'm ok with it for the moment, and, for once, I loved the feeling to be pierced. I loved the relieving aspect of it. 

Some people sometimes disturb me...

I was in a café with a friend of mine yesterday and our conversation really disturbed me. The guy was falling in love and the way he told me that totally disturbed me. The fact is that I was happy for him because I just felt he hasn't had this sort of feeling for a very long time. But my point is that the fact that he was soooo sure about his feelings about the guy ("I love him"), even if their encounter was pretty new, really made me wonder about myself. I'm never sure of my feelings about someone when it comes to love (I hate this word probably because of the fact that I'm so unable of knowing what it does mean). I mean, I've never known what it is to be in love. I suppose I've been in love but I'm not sure of it, whereas my friend was saying he's in love with this guy he almost does not know. As far as I'm concerned, my relation with my ex I'm supposed to have loved and I'm still supposed to love is not that clear. I suppose I've loved him and I supposed I'm still loving him but I'm not sure of it. How do people know?

First day of school....

Ooooof, first day of class and I've already met one French guy. Am I so unlucky? Is it written on my face that I'm French? Argh! Anyway, the program of the second semester seems to be cool even if I've decided to do homework as less as possible: Politics of Africa, International organisations, Italian and Representation of sexuality within art (this one is the interesting one, or is supposed to be interesting!). We'll see...

What am I supposed to do?

Since some days, my heart does not know what to do. I have to find an internship after my academic year, here, in Montreal. Pb: I want to go to Italy like never before. I just want to finally know this country I feel attracted to without any reason. So? What should I do? Should I have an internship in Montreal because it's more practical or should I find something in Florence where maybe I'm going to spend 4 years of my life because there's a school there where I want to go? Aaaaaaaah! I think I'm going to try Florence...

I'm back from Vancouver

I spent the majority of my holidays in Vancouver with Jessica, my best friend. As I could not find a single picture taken during these holidays of Jessica and me not drunk, I am not sure you will be able to see her. Well, I guess I will place a good-looking picture as she has hundreds of them despite the fact that she thinks she's not sexy (most ridiculous thought ever).
My vacations in Vancouver were ok: the city is great, clean and Jessica is living on Davie St ("the coolest place in town" according to her and the gay street by the way). My only problem with the city is its clean aspect. It's the same for the inhabitants: everybody is nice and polite but it's just not credible. You feel the city wants to free itself from this politeness that is too strict. Well, why do I say that? Because everybody there smokes pot, I don't think that this reflects a joy of living. It's the same feeling I have in Montreal: everybody is nice and polite on the one hand and, on the other hand, the suicide rate is just the highest in the world with Sweden I think. There's hypocrisy in this country that is subjective but everyone can feel it.
Anyway, despite this, Vancouver is a nice place to live...and to get drunk and stoned too! Despite the fact that I was sick the last days, I really appreciated these holidays. Thanks Jessica!